June 19, 2014 - Step by Step

Step by Step
Thursday, June 19, 2014
 
" ...(O)ur troubles, we think, are basically of our own making. They arise out of ourselves, and the alcoholic is an extreme example of self-will run riot, though he usually doesn't think so. Above everything, we alcoholics must be rid of this selfishness. We must, or it kills us!" - Alcoholics Anonymous, 3rd Edition, 1976, Ch 5 ("How It Works"), p 62.

Today, I ask myself if I can truly believe and accept that my troubles are of my own creation and that selfishness is the binding tie, as the Program's co-founders theorize. Before and during my drinking days, I ran my life on my terms, my rules, my wants, needs, expectations and desires. And always, the results were disastrous and, if I am to be thoroughly honest, turned progressively worse. To whom or what, then, do I entrust my life if I can't run it? Herein is the introduction to the concept of a Higher Power, an entity that is stronger than I, or God as we understand Him. And even if I do not or cannot yet believe in a Higher Power or God, my willingness to at least be open to the possibility is a beginning - toward humility. Today, I will at least be open to the possibility that something higher and wiser than I can run my life better than me. And our common journey continues. Step by step. - Chris M., 2014